Actually opened After Effects again today! I used to make a lot of AMVs and video edits back in 2016-2018, but kinda stopped
doing it when I actually made friends lmao. Every now and then I'll open After Effects back up and start editing.
It's still super fun!
Yesterday, twenty one pilots released their new song 'The Contract' and the music video
is just SO cool, it's inspired me to open up After Effects. But my laptop has gotten quite slow so I spent ages just closing
and opening After Effects while making the lyric video. It takes SOOOO long to edit this way!!
I'm kinda close to giving up as it takes ages to edit this when After Effects keeps crashing. But still kinda
happy with what I already have since I don't have a lot of experience making lyric videos :3
I also saw my mom today! We went to a second hand record store and I got 3 CDs!!! I got Origin of Symmetry by
Muse, System of a Down by System of a Down and Amoniak by Radiohead ^^ very happy with my new CDs hehehehe
Recently, I've been looking into spirituality. I've only been meditating and grounding myself so far.
To be honest, I'm not sure if I have the capacity to believe in anything other than hard science.
I've been feeling more calm but I'm sure my new dose of medication and meditating are a great help as
has been scientifically proven. But I would love to be more in tune with spirituality. Not necessarily in
a religious way, like Paganism or Wicca. Moreso in a Druid way; living the way of nature. I'm convinced
humans have strayed too far away from our roots as animals. We are as much a part of nature as any other
animal out there. Why aren't we acting like one? Why do we feel the need to defy Mother Nature as she
is? It wrecks my brain, and I'm super curious to discover the ways we've rejected nature that may
seem normal to most of us today. That has been the main focus of my spiritual "journey".
It has helped me ground myself. It's genuinely a nice feeling to just, be more calm. It may just
be the methylphenidate I recently started, but to be fair,
I feel that's making me anxious more than
anything; it is a stimulant after all.
I wonder where this journey will take me and what I will discover
about myself and my place on this planet.
Did you see the massive red moon last night? She was absolutely gorgeous. My friend came over and
we talked and watched the moon together. It was great.
My first diary entry! If you're reading this; why?
Anyway, I've been building this neocities site for a while now but I keep getting distracted and stopping lol XD.
But I've finally started taking ADHD medication (!!! yay!) so instead of schoolwork I've been locking in on actually
building this website. I'm so fed up with subscribtion based stuff, fed up with social media, but the world wide web
is basically my first love.
I was probably 9 or 10 years old when I made my first website. I'm 22 now; the host I used at the time no longer exists
and therefore my sites are gone as well. But I've been doing this on and off for a long time. Recently, I coded a website
by hand for a school project. This kickstarted my love for building sites again and I subsequently stumbled across
Spacehey. I barely used it though, and the code I used to decorate my site was not my own.
The website you're on right now I've fully coded by hand! It's quite the learning curve but I have some
experience from the school project I did (you can check it out if you want:
dreamscapeinc.eu). It's a puzzle ARG I made with two
friends as part of my third year project of art school :) let me know if you manage to solve it and
find out what happened to Dreamscape Inc.!
